Guernsey fell out of LOCKDOWN.2.0 on Monday 22 March. There are zero (known) active cases of covid on the island. The energy and vibrations of the fallout from the second sudden lockdown have been pretty disgusting. The debt, suicide, self-harm and mental health toll feels like it is sky high. We lost an islander to covid during the second wave, one too many. My heart is full of love for those who suffered, and who continue to suffer, the effects of lockdown (and “long-lockdown”). I feel tainted and traumatised by mothering a toddler through this pandemic, and being a wife. I feel like I have failed at everything this week. I see a lot of exuberantly upbeat messages from people who must feel like the restrictions being lifted is as simple as turning off a hot kitchen tap. There’s a kind of “hi-ho, hi-ho, it’s off to normality we go!” Well, f*ck that. I went back to bed (with a heavy cold, the perks of living with a toddler that licks shoes).
One amazing thing about how people all over the globe are displaced right now, is that Sarnia Cherie, gem of the sea, has the divine and magical singer songstress Nessi Gomes. On Thursday night we had an easy flow yoga session and a vocal sound bath with Nessi. I was lying underneath a skylight watching the rain and rain drops cry rivers and rivulets of tears, feeling like I was in an early Radiohead album, letting it all in. Powerful and mighty are Nessi’s talents, I was giddy and ecstatic with the absurdity of life during and after the session. So much so, that the next night I was sick. And, it felt good to purge. Just, wow. My heart is full, and expanded, the session definitely cleared out some of this lockdown yuck and yak!!!